I watched this Youtube video once about internet vs. IRL friends. With the internet ones you can connect a lot faster, most likely you found each other through similar interests and can dive right in to a relationship. IRL friends come much more slowly, as you day by day gain information about who they are. Internet friends are also much easier to drop, one day you could just stop messaging them or whatever. With real life friends that's kind of difficult, you see this person on a daily basis, your other friends are friends with this person, and you'll feel like a right ass if you try to just drop them one day.
And therein lies my problem. I don't know how to stop being friends with someone. Last year we were fine, I got annoyed with her occasionally but it wasn't a big deal. All of a sudden at the beginning of this year, after not seeing her much over the summer, I really just didn't want to be friends anymore. Everything she did annoyed me, the way she talks to me in a condescending tone, the way she makes fun of me for the things I love, and the way she ignores me when there are other people around; it fucking hurts. So I talk to her less, but she's still always there, still friends with my other friends (who apparently don't see anything wrong, am I just mental?).
I'm starting to resent her and the interactions she has with my friends. I'm acting as if she's not allowed to be friends with them anymore or like anything that I already like because it's mine and I don't like her. Now that's selfish and immature, but I really can't help it.
Don't you wish you could just tell someone everything they've done to hurt you and have them fix it? Oh if only the world worked that way.
This is one reason I need to go to college, to get the fuck away from the people I just can't take anymore.
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