Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Crush

I've only ever really had three crushes in my lifetime. The first was in fourth and fifth grade; his name was Mark D. he was adorable and our initials were the same so I thought that meant it was fate for us to be together. After that, every single time I told my friends who I had a crush on, it was a lie, I only pretended so that they wouldn't think I was weird or being secretive. Now I am 7-8 years older and can finally and honestly say I have a crush. Two actually. Both of these people are taken, one will always be taken and out of my reach, the other is probably only temporarily taken, but it matters not, for at the end of this year our roads will separate. I think that by being so realistic of the outcome of these inane fantasies that I probably should not call them crushes. If I know that both will go no where, what's the point? No one has ever wanted me in this way, and so I have decided the high school just was not my place to find love. Hopefully college will bear fairer fortune. For now I play the waiting game and flirt until it leaves me.

1 comment:

goobaloo said...

Ah this makes me so sad